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Im feeling the same feelings ive had before. I hate this feeling of uncertainty n doubt. I will never have this feeling if he never existed or if you never knew him or if he didnt want to meet you today. It just leave me scared n unsure of the truth cause u lied to me before. You might have just lied to me again. I want to believe you but it's not all 100% now. U know too well of what has been going on and how i have been feeling. I want to know more truths yet i cant take the hurt. Why must this year be so miserable??