Keeping the balance

I woke just now, hoping to feel fresh and happy but when I saw the both of them together online I feel shitty. I know I made up my mind but my heart refuse to follow. I had collected all the courage over the years and when the news fell I became dumbfounded and would literally like to squeeeze the trigger. Everyone is happy. I too wish to be happy. Time heals all wound. For mine it make take forever.